A transformation is happening. The spaces between are fragile. Fatigue and muck cuts a diabolical combo. There's always a balance. Always a change. Not a crack. A clean split. Smooth.A line is drawn either way. And, what is left at the absolute bottom?A core remains at every ending. For me, that's---
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Perspective
There's a lot. There's always plenty.Who am I? What am I? Anxiety, depression, PTSD, bipolar---so many things. But, through all that, I am still a....Writer.
Black and White
I can't choose. Even when there's a choice to be made. The only thing I ever know for sure. One side is black, the other white. Swirling until I decide on the future.
BLACK
through world after world, flashes of screens, cracks in fire,we fly, we fall, we see nothing but black,when sails unfurl, and the means to charge down,grafted by barbed wire, strewn to a wall,blight and wails, cries and mauling,we see nothing but black. we see nothing but waves of ruin,barrels of brew, to brush or doom,soon …
The Feeling of the Day is…
Resistance. It's not a feeling of being lost. More, misplaced. Scrambled rather than being a black hole of nothing. What's the point? There is none. There doesn't have to be a reason. Just as there doesn't have to be a reason to breathe and live. Writing doesn't need a reason--this is something that I consider …
For Me
What makes a good story? What makes good characters? What makes interesting scenes? Fights? Conflict? Villains? Beginning, middle, end? What makes a decent story? What makes a decent plot? What makes a good book? What makes a good post? What makes a good writer? ... Trauma? Heart? Pain? Anger? Self-doubt? Determination. Perseverance. Stubbornness. Confidence. Hope? …
Having a Bad Day
Of course--honestly, he should have seen it coming--the date didn't turn out well. The list of things Adrian could scream from the mountain of why this date was, yet again, a failure...There was a lot. Adrian held each one close because he'd never been one for confidence. It was a folly of his life. But, …
The Hard Part
Frustrated. Hungry. Annoyed. Hopeful. Regretful. Grateful. Scared. Driven. Lost. Stubborn. Doubtful. No matter what I'll keep moving forward. I'm not happy with my production, or my writing. But, it's not a bad thing. At least, not this time. This time it serves to only make me fight harder. I may not have the confidence to …
Endless
Identifying my feelings has been a bit easy just for the pure fact that I'm constantly in my head. As a writer, it's kind of required to have some insight to emotions--the reasons, the workings, apart and together. Writing, for me, causes an introspection, especially when I want to pin down character reactions and interactions. …
For Now
Sometimes there's a day when frustration rattles every word and sentence. It becomes a fight up a muddy hole. Chapters and ideas seem like burnt mush. And every possibility to improve a book, or start something new, melts away before I can get a decent grip. I seem blind. Frustration gains a firmer grip, and …
Just Buckle Down 